Reach

Alright in the past three days, I have learned a few things. Ready for a long post? Here goes::

I'm in the process of reading tons of books. A friend of mine that I have just recently started talking to again let me borrow his book, Wild at Heart. I have always wanted to read this book, because come on, every girl wants to know what's going on in a man's heart right? Haha! I highly recommend it. It's a book for both men and women. Anyways, while reading this book I have noticed a lot about the man's heart. All the affirmation they need to be called a man. It's interesting. I decided that I want a man that is "wild at heart" and that I want to raise my sons to be the same. John Eldredge, the author explains to the reader that men and women are made in God's image. Women are more of God's love and comfort, while men are the more fierce part of God. It's just really astounding to why God made us the way He did. Why men and women are wired differently, but it all makes sense. When we come together as one we are almost seen as the full image of God. His love, mercy, compassion, fierceness, justice, and in ways violent or angry. No duh were supposed to coexist. So, Jessica...my only reader.. haha, the next time Bailey wants to go hog hunting or climb a mountain, let him. :) Adam was created in the wilderness outside the Garden of Eden. It's where they belong. Hahaha!

In my Let's Go devotional I have been learning a lot about how I have fear and doubt in my soul about myself. Just the fear of messing something up or not doing the right thing. Someone once told me, "Why do we do what we do? Because we want to." I had to sit think about that for awhile. It ended up making sense in the end though. I do things because I want to. But my prayer is that I want the things that God wants for me. My ultimate fear is doing something that God doesn't want. I want to live in the fullness of His plan for my life, but I have a fear that I'll make a wrong turn and miss out. So, first recognizing that I do have that fear within me then I keep writing and the word trust comes. Trust in the Lord and stay in His Word. I wrote..."The Holy Spirit is leading me to just keep in His Word and be patient. I don't need to know everything that's going to happen right this very second. His timing for everything is the best timing." Just confirming is His will everyday is important to me. Trusting in Him and giving my fear up to Him daily really helps. One time I was really discouraged about this. Discouraged in the fact that my desires I want for my life were going to be withheld from me or something. The discouragement was mainly about not finding someone and starting a family. It was defintely a feeling of doubt from The Enemy, because at that time, I had recently gone through my first heartbreak. And what do you do when you're discouraged? Read His Word, His TRUTH. I came upon this in Psalm 20 "May He grant you your heart's desire and fulfill all your plans!" Confirmation. And if that wasn't enough, God showed me this in Psalm 21 "You have given him his heart's desire and have not withheld the request of his lips." Confirmation. God is good people. No, He is amazing, extraordinary, outstanding, omniscient, and all loving. I don't know about you, but I'm shocked everyday that God created this beautiful earth and all the stars, but still cares about us more than all of it. Blows my mind.


I was reading in Psalms today and came upon this...try putting your own name in it.

Psalm 112
Praise the Lord!
Blessed is Samantha who fears the Lord, who greatly delights in his commandments! Her offspring will be mighty in the land and the generation of the upright will be blessed. Wealth and riches are in her house, and her righteousness endures forever. LIGHT DAWNS IN THE DARKNESS FOR THE UPRIGHT; She is gracious, merciful, and righteous. It is well with Samantha who deals generously and lends; who conducts her affairs with justice. FOR SHE WILL NEVER BE MOVED; SHE WILL BE REMEMBERED FOREVER. SHE IS NOT AFRAID OF BAD NEWS; HER HEART IS FIRM, TRUSTING IN THE LORD. Her heart is steady; she will not be afraid until she looks in triumph on her adversaries. She has distributed freely; she has given to the poor; her righteousness endures forever; her horn is exalted in honor. The wicked man sees it and is angry he gnashes his teeth and melts away; the desire of the wicked will perish!


thanks for reading
Samantha